Category: mama life

their first birthday

Clay awoke, came to sit beside me. I told him today was their due date, that they should be one. I didn’t expect the tears to flood the way they did.⠀⠀ We talked about...

10 lessons I learned from grief

I snapped this photo on a jog, weeks after my miscarriage when a sudden wave of guttural sadness washed over me. The loss of those two babies was the single deepest, darkest place of...

a letter to the mamas

a letter to the mamas To the mom-to-be, the one with a hopeful mama heart.⠀ At the beginning of the journey.⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ To the mama with babies in Heaven.⠀ At the stop along the...

He is who He says He is

I stood in the shower and sobbed as the following words resounded in my mind: “He is who He says He is.” He carried me through that 18 hour labor and delivered me to...

little fingers

Her little fingers wrap ever so gently around mine.⠀ I inhale deeply and exhale as a wave of euphoria flows through my body.⠀ These moments—these still moments in the darkness of early morning, the...

the prayers He didn’t answer

“And when God finally reveals His strange and mysterious ways, it will drop us to our knees in worship. We will thank Him for the prayers He did answer. We’ll also thank Him for...

the one thing I hope she always knows.

Noelle.⠀ Mama. My first nickname for you.⠀ Noellie Ellie.⠀ My warrioress.⠀ My little monkey.⠀ No No.⠀ My squishy baby.⠀ Pookie Bear. Pook. My Pook.⠀ My sweet girl. ⠀ My little bambino.⠀ Of all the...

on God’s love for us

I learn a lot about God’s love through her. She hasn’t accomplished anything for me, and yet I love her deeply. She hasn’t proven anything to me, and yet I am so proud. I...

the holy work of motherhood

As I held her in the early hours of the morning, I thought to myself, “This is holy work.” I laid her down. She stirred and fussed. So I picked her back up and...

a call to gratitude

One year ago today we sat around the table, and I struggled to answer that question, “What are you thankful for?” I knew there was an endless list of things I could say, but...