the best thing and a really hard thing.

“It’s possible for it to be the best thing and a really hard thing,” a wise friend recently said to me of motherhood. And well, I couldn’t agree more. Motherhood is the best thing...

our second week with sweet Noelle

Two weeks with our sweet Noelle. First outing with just mama—to the pediatrician. First four hour stretch of sleep. First time wearing this adorable bonnet!⠀ It’s incredibly fun to dress this little “doll” of...

the gift of motherhood

No one told me how amazing motherhood is. Okay I’m sure they did, or at least tried. But it’s joy is something I could never fathom until I got here… until she got here.⠀...

our first week home with Noelle

One week home with baby Noelle. She has filled our hearts with more love than we’ve known and our home with more baby gear than ever!⠀ So much has happened in a week. So...

meet Noelle

Meet Noelle Elizabeth Collier. Born 8.22.19 at 12:41am. 6 pounds 13 ounces. 20.5 inches long. Clay and I are overjoyed at the blessing Noelle is. She is a true gift from God, our little...

on being ready for the next season…

It was two days before I went into labor, though I didn’t know when I would. It was two days past my due date, and I was feeling desperate…⠀ Towards the end of my...

in the waiting

We wait for her. Much like I waited for him. In this very spot where he made a promise to me four years ago, we stand with the promise of this pregnancy.⠀ Pregnancy is...

What do we do with broken dreams?

My entire life I dreamt of being pregnant… ever since I was a little girl. This pregnancy has been a true gift from God. But in many ways this pregnancy has been a broken...

Noelle’s nursery

I sat in her nursery the other night. It was quiet. Clay was gone at class. And as I sat in that rocker and soaked in this room, I could envision her growing up...

fleeting feelings vs. unchanging God

“I, the Lord, do not change.” – Malachi 3:6 My feelings change from day to day. From hour to hour. Even from minute to minute. Especially in pregnancy with all the hormones fluctuations. It...