Tagged: hope

10 lessons I learned from grief

I snapped this photo on a jog, weeks after my miscarriage when a sudden wave of guttural sadness washed over me. The loss of those two babies was the single deepest, darkest place of...

He is who He says He is

I stood in the shower and sobbed as the following words resounded in my mind: “He is who He says He is.” He carried me through that 18 hour labor and delivered me to...

the prayers He didn’t answer

“And when God finally reveals His strange and mysterious ways, it will drop us to our knees in worship. We will thank Him for the prayers He did answer. We’ll also thank Him for...

our rainbow baby

I began writing this post months ago… . . . Ours is a small flicker of reflection of the greatest Redemption Story ever told. I love that I continue to find myself within the...

what beautiful things I’ve seen

It is the song that plays through our engagement video. And it’s the song that’s been running through my head lately as I revel in life with this little miracle.⠀ 10 weeks: The day...

remembering my future

Yesterday we took Noelle to church for the very first time. And our pastor preached on Colossians 1:11-14 which begins: “May you be made strong with all the strength that comes from his glorious...

in the wake of a breakdown

I wrote this post last Sunday… This morning as I nursed her, in the rocking chair in her nursery, in the dim light of the morning sun, her little fingers wrapped around my thumb...

pregnancy and infant loss remembrance

“When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn’t a...

a crown of beauty instead of ashes

It was our wedding passage—one God had spoken to me the night we got engaged and one our pastor “happened” to surprise us with on that day. I had waited an awful long time...

the day we became parents

October 3. It’s a hard day. It’s the day we became parents. To babies we would never get to hold. It’s been quite a journey of healing over this last year. And I still...