Tagged: loss

what beautiful things I’ve seen

It is the song that plays through our engagement video. And it’s the song that’s been running through my head lately as I revel in life with this little miracle.⠀ 10 weeks: The day...

pregnancy and infant loss remembrance

“When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn’t a...

a crown of beauty instead of ashes

It was our wedding passage—one God had spoken to me the night we got engaged and one our pastor “happened” to surprise us with on that day. I had waited an awful long time...

the day we became parents

October 3. It’s a hard day. It’s the day we became parents. To babies we would never get to hold. It’s been quite a journey of healing over this last year. And I still...

our 20 week scan.

“Second pregnancy no kids at home?” The rote words of the nurse rolled off her tongue with ease. My throat immediately tightened. I answered the rest of her questions including the somewhat offensive, “Does...

our pregnancy after loss

pregnant. December 12, 2018 It’s been 4 days since I found out I am pregnant. Pregnant. 2 days later that word seemingly sat there with an ease on that stick not seen, felt or...

hope after miscarriage.

It arrived the day before we left to visit my family for Christmas. A box labeled “in honor of Collier Babies” held reminders of truth that we have reason to hope for these babies...

I Don’t Understand It

// on grief and loss and the unanswered questions of this life // I sat in church on Sunday and hot tears flooded my eyes, pouring down my cheeks more quickly than I could...

grief.

Grief. It sneaks up on you. Often when you least expect it. Pops up out of the blue with no warning at all.⠀ Last night we were watching Last Man. Neil’s daughter had passed...

our journey of miscarriage

On October 3, our world changed. In one moment our lives would never be the same. We became parents. It was a season of celebration, of anticipation, of dreaming and planning. My sweet parents...