Tagged: loss

our 20 week scan.

“Second pregnancy no kids at home?” The rote words of the nurse rolled off her tongue with ease. My throat immediately tightened. I answered the rest of her questions including the somewhat offensive, “Does...

our pregnancy after loss

pregnant. December 12, 2018 It’s been 4 days since I found out I am pregnant. Pregnant. 2 days later that word seemingly sat there with an ease on that stick not seen, felt or...

hope after miscarriage.

It arrived the day before we left to visit my family for Christmas. A box labeled “in honor of Collier Babies” held reminders of truth that we have reason to hope for these babies...

I Don’t Understand It

// on grief and loss and the unanswered questions of this life // I sat in church on Sunday and hot tears flooded my eyes, pouring down my cheeks more quickly than I could...

grief.

Grief. It sneaks up on you. Often when you least expect it. Pops up out of the blue with no warning at all.⠀ Last night we were watching Last Man. Neil’s daughter had passed...

our journey of miscarriage

On October 3, our world changed. In one moment our lives would never be the same. We became parents. It was a season of celebration, of anticipation, of dreaming and planning. My sweet parents...

the pain of a heartbreak.

“Woke up this morning, and I heard the news. I know the pain of a heartbreak.” – Ben Rector, When a Heart Breaks Heartbreak. The first thing you probably think of when you hear...

a decade of pain

I haven’t yet posted about this journey that I have been on over the past six months. It’s a very personal journey, but I feel it’s one worth sharing. Ten years ago, I lost...

it’s not about me

Today is Krissi’s birthday. She would have been 27. I think about her life, and I wonder what she would be doing now, who she would be, where she would live. I wonder if...