to the mom who’s miscarried
It was that movie moment—the moment we were going to see our baby for the first time. Clay held my hand as we stared expectantly at the sonogram screen. It had been a whirlwind...
Tagged: miscarriage
from tragedy to hope
Dang This Is Us—it gets me every time. But this time, specifically with the plot line of a pregnancy with twins. It’s really tough to watch. I think of those twins we lost. My...
not right now
// on giving others time to grieve // Our miscarriage was the deepest, darkest place of grief I have ever known. There were people who wanted to “help me along” in my grieving, to...
7 things that helped me through my miscarriage
This was my first and only baby bump photo. The quality isn’t great. It’s pixelated. And yet it’s a special photo for me. October 15 is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, and...
sorrow and love
I’m not sure exactly what triggered it. Something we were watching on TV. But it got me thinking about it—about them—again. And as I thought about them, and as I thought about the season...
little threads
We drove down Santa Monica Blvd. We passed that crosswalk where I wept, sobbed, mourned that devastating first prenatal appointment/sonogram. I pointed it out to Clay. And he said, “Yeah, but this is also...
their first birthday
Clay awoke, came to sit beside me. I told him today was their due date, that they should be one. I didn’t expect the tears to flood the way they did.⠀⠀ We talked about...
the prayers He didn’t answer
“And when God finally reveals His strange and mysterious ways, it will drop us to our knees in worship. We will thank Him for the prayers He did answer. We’ll also thank Him for...
our rainbow baby
I began writing this post months ago… . . . Ours is a small flicker of reflection of the greatest Redemption Story ever told. I love that I continue to find myself within the...
pregnancy and infant loss remembrance
“When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn’t a...
