sorrow and love

I’m not sure exactly what triggered it. Something we were watching on TV. But it got me thinking about it—about them—again. And as I thought about them, and as I thought about the season...

the testing of our faith

I’ll never forget the feeling when the doctor came back into the room with the positive test results. “Mono, mono,” she said as my high school mind wondered about the implications. I’d later get...

the marathon of motherhood

// and the six words we really need to hear // My first article for Mom Mentor is up! It’s all about how God meets us in and carries us through our weakness, shortcomings,...

woman of many roles

#womensupportingwomen: As I contemplated this Instagram movement, I heard a whisper: “Deborah.” And as I settled into the rocking chair on our patio with my coffee, a blanket, and my Bible, I was inspired...

little threads

We drove down Santa Monica Blvd. We passed that crosswalk where I wept, sobbed, mourned that devastating first prenatal appointment/sonogram. I pointed it out to Clay. And he said, “Yeah, but this is also...

their first birthday

Clay awoke, came to sit beside me. I told him today was their due date, that they should be one. I didn’t expect the tears to flood the way they did.⠀⠀ We talked about...

10 lessons I learned from grief

I snapped this photo on a jog, weeks after my miscarriage when a sudden wave of guttural sadness washed over me. The loss of those two babies was the single deepest, darkest place of...

a letter to the mamas

a letter to the mamas To the mom-to-be, the one with a hopeful mama heart.⠀ At the beginning of the journey.⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ To the mama with babies in Heaven.⠀ At the stop along the...